You Have Called Higher

"I could just sit
I could just sit and wait for all Your goodness
Hope to feel Your presence"

As I sit in my room, mostly packed to leave for the summer these words resound in my head. I am going to serve this summer, at Camp Wow. Yet, I have not sought the Lords face through His Word in days. I feel lonely lately, like the world is moving so fast and I am struggling in last place with nobody on the sidelines to cheer me on. I know I am so blessed, I know Jesus died for my sins and wants the best life for me, which is the life fully devoted to serving Him. I know I have people who care about me in the world, I KNOW I am not alone. But sometimes I forget, or else ignore these facts. I sit and wait. I sit and I wait for Gods presence. I allow myself to become lazy and unfeeling towards the Lord of the universe who fights for my affection. I hope to feel Him, I hope all the while sinking into my own loneliness. Although I am "going". I am going to Camp Wow, I will go to church on Sunday, I will do these outward things I am not becoming a woman after Gods own heart, I am becoming an empty room instead, a fruitless garden because I am focusing on my own life, the things I need to get done today and the feelings I have right now instead of setting my eyes on Jesus and keeping my mind fixed on what Paul tells us to think on in Philippians 4 "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable... is excellent or praiseworthy"

"But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I'll go where You will lead me Lord"

This song, by All sons and Daughters, has been a favorite of mine and has always struck me as an anthem to do big things for God, a reminder that God is big and deep and gives us the power to be the same. But these big things start on a small scale, and today as it played I was really convicted of not allowing myself to go higher and deeper with my every day life, because these days I have now are the building block for my future. I will not allow myself to leave the Lords presence today. I will fight for the higher life He has called me to. I will write His words on my heart and delight in the rather than trying to find things in this world to delight in. He is my portion in life and I will not fall into the trick of Satan to worry on all all that is to come. I would like to end this post with another of my favorite passages 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?"